the Mountain in My Way

Seems the more I try to change, the more I stay the same,

struggling just to survive, not worried about fortune nor fame.

Looking for a reason to muddle through another day.

I was so close to the starting line, but a mountain was in my way,

tried to burrow through, and couldn't find my way around,

long before I began the climb, I found the way down.

Once again I stand before it, angry and confused,my confidence is gone, my self-esteem abused.

Lost in an apathetic despair that is almost sublime,

now I am just trying to find the strength of will to began the climb.